5 Unforgiven Men

Am I the only one who sees the seams of this hypocrite?
Is one soul worth so many, just to keep him singing here?
But regardless of what I see, hear or think about him,
He’s no more a hypocrite than I, for me to judge him.

“Judge not”, I know…
But his lie brings out my humanity.
His shallow, mocking tone
Tests my Christianity.

At my most vulnerable he handed me the knife.
He was too busy assuming pain meant addiction.
He quickly apologized to me but I’d heard it all before.
I could not continue a friendship with someone who saw me that way.

“Judge not”, I know…
But his lie brought out my humanity.
His shallow, mocking tone
Tests my Christianity.

Fair season friend, where did you go?
You used me for what you needed, then turned and stabbed my back.
You rationalized that certain mistakes I’ve made in the past
Justified your coup, made your betrayal okay.

“Judge not”, I know…
But his lies brought out my humanity.
His shallow, mocking tone
Tests my Christianity.

You said you loved me and wanted to marry me, protect me.
But only to get the prize without the price.
When I was not the girl you assumed I was,
You quickly lost interest in me.

“Judge not”, I know…
But his lie brought out my humanity.
His shallow, mocking tone
Tests my Christianity.

You were my first love. You were my proverbial “sun, moon and stars”
If you had only asked I would have dragged your talentless ass to the top.
But instead you manipulated, decimated my heart and my self-esteem.
Finally stealing what I might have gladly given if you’d only have asked.

“Judge not”, I know…
But his lie brought out my humanity.
His shallow, mocking tone
Tests my Christianity…